Posts Tagged ‘diary’

I wonder

March 30, 2010

I wonder why pain is so painful and there is no way around it?



March 29, 2010

It’s raining and seems like a lazy day. Church time, family time, rest time.Tea and some chocolate seems to be the best remedy for a melancholic.

What was it like a millennia ago? What it will be like millennia after? And so here I am captured between the past and the future having no knowledge of either passing time in a leisure of peace, comfort and love. Distant from the trouble caused by the outside rain.

Tomorrow will change all of that…


January 24, 2010

As I walk the road of change using different tools I find along the way to help the progress I also find some foes.

I decided not to drink coffee (not a rule but a guideline) especially after 6:00pm and no sugar after same hour. It was easy to do home in Ukraine. No good coffee, no time to make it, process itself is complicated since we don’t have coffee maker there. Now all of that is changed. We are staying at my mother-in-law and everything is different in the land of opportunities. Coffee is everywhere, easily available and served in different flavors. Temptation. The price for drinking coffee in my case is headaches, loss of energy in a long run. So I try to avoid it. But it’s a struggle. Now it’s not big yet but every time I am offered a cup of a bitter drink I am tempted to answer ”yes, please.”

Web blogging or hand written diary

January 13, 2010

I notice that since I stared blogging my thought process changed. I think I was more honest in my paper dairy than here. And it’s normal to a degree. I am not here to pour out my soul to anyone who may come by. I have pretty specific ideas about what I want to write here. But the problem is that I have two blogs now and by the time I finish updating them I don’t have much time to write in my hard copy diary.

Now, when I hear myself talking about not having enough time I understand that I am talking about priorities not about time. So I need to get disciplined to do it. And I know I have time to write but I may not feel like it or just being lazy. Interesting that procrastination is like animals with many heads. You may defeat it on one front it will come up in the other. Now that I am up with two of my routines I think it’s time to analyze my life again and see what other areas need improvement.